sick again

i guess having children really takes a toll. i am sick so much more often than i used to be. in between the lack of (good) sleep and the kids always picking up one thing or another from their friends, this is what you get.

so i'm here with the achy-all-over, feverish type of thing. luckily, Sena's at her grandma's today. so that means i only have Aiyana, and that went ok in the morning, but she's got so much more energy than i do at the moment that she got bored...and it's raining outside. so we went for a drive, and she fell asleep soon enough, so here i am at my sister's writing this post.

speaking of my sister, i don't know if i mentioned that she and Ricardo are expecting a baby in september. so that's really exciting.
i have to confess that most times (not right now, cuz' i feel too sick) i am envious / jealous of her, cuz' she'll get to give birth. and that's such a cool experience, so powerful. it's one of the very few times when you're really in touch with things. if you let yourself be. it's like experiencing this awsome force of nature, a huge transformation that's taking place through you. so anyway, maybe i'll have more kids just to experience this again. i think it scares ed when i say this, he's having a hard enough time with two. and i am too, but i still feel like this.

with all this rain, my garden's doing pretty well. i planted lavender, spearmint (for tea), catnip, basil and beans. also some marigolds cuz' they're so pretty. the groundhog ate my catnip, but everything else is doing well. last night i used some of the basil in a stirfry i made, and it was really good. plus it's really fun cooking something that you've planted and tended to yourself.

peace