stepping out

have you ever stepped
outside your head
for just a moment?
away from thought currents,
from everything you know?

outside your head,
a crazy place to be
no rational person would allow herself such surrender
(but that is the catch)

no rational person
could bear this much fullness
this excruciating emptiness
this much fun

this terrifying feeling of uncertainty
this letting go of everything you thought you knew
the limitless possibilities of the unknown
and the loneliness that comes along
even as you know that everyone you've ever loved,
is right there beside you,
inside you, is you

the fear of leaving the familiar
even for a second -
familiar feelings,
familiar pain
familiar comfort
familiar confines

to step outside your head
it's helpful if you're not secure,
but rather on the verge, on the edge
try to get cozy with that feeling....

you just don't know what lies ahead,
what lies within,
you just don't know what you may find
you just don't know.

but,
if you want a glimpse,
let go of certainty (you've worked so hard to get it...)

if you feel drawn to the experience
of letting go and living life that way
it may be helpful to ask yourself:
who would i be without everything i think i know about myself?

then,
sharpen your senses
and feel the peaceful ambiguity
or possibly, the sudden clarity
of the answer