i've had a bit of a rough week. sena got sick on monday. she had a sore throat, high fever, headache and vomitting, and was pretty miserable for a couple of days. we were afraid it may be strep but then found out that it wasn't. it was just a virus that's been going around (her friends have it as well). she's feeling much better now, but yesterday it looked like aiyana was also getting a fever and i thought she was going to have the same thing as sena; but then she seems to be normal today, so i guess she didn't get it after all.
in any case, the whole thing wore me out, the constant attention, the worrying, etc. on top of everything, yesterday ed and i had a hard time with each other. i felt very frustrated trying to communicate with him and being misunderstood. it wasn't much better this morning...
when i finally got the kids in the car today to go and do a bunch of errands, i turned on the radio, and it was tuned to this obscure, local radio station; they were playing some punk-rock music, nothing i knew, but it was really fast and loud and to me, felt like the perfect reflection of my inner state.
i wanted to scream myself, and maybe even throw something, that would've felt really good; but i didn't feel that this was an option. so this type of music being the next best thing, i was relieved to hear it, and turned it up as loud as i could bear. i took the long way to wherever we were going, just so i could spend more time in the car listening to it. the kids didn't seem to mind, and by the time we got to our destination, i felt so much better....
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